Did your mindset shift so that outcomes of a race became the goal, and the progress became less important? As you became a more confident and competent runner, completing races and accumulating miles, did you lose sight of the process because you became so fixated on the outcome of a race that you forget there was a process to get to the start line.
And if you’ve ever avoided a parkrun, or a race, faked an injury or an illness, ask yourself why didn’t you go? Be honest, was it because your focus was on the outcome and the outcome was not where you wanted it to be?